Glamis was born on July 5, 2000. He was our second puppy to raise for Canine Companions for Independence. He graduated as a Skilled Companion and worked for 9 years in Minnesota. After he retired, he moved back to Michigan to live out his retirement with us. It has been just over 3 months since we lost Arri to cancer and now it looks like we get to ride the roller coaster again - with a very different type of cancer.

This blog is written as a form of therapy. It allows me to clear my head and not dwell on events. There will be times of great emotion and brutal honesty. If you have questions, ask. You are welcome to share your comments. Every dog is different and every cancer experience is different. If you or someone you know is dealing with cancer in a pet, please feel free to share this blog or Arri's - arridog.blogspot.com.

Wednesday, July 17, 2013

July 17; seeing pink elephants

Just when I thought we might have a quiet day of healing, I get thrown a curve ball.

I was done baking for the morning and now the 30+ cakes needed to cool before I could do more.  Glamis has been on the move - going from one room to another.  I find him this time in the bedroom.  I take Oregon outside.  As we were coming in, I see Summer and Glamis laying at the door waiting their turn.  Ok.  Out we go again.  Now that I know what I am looking for, I can see Glamis is walking like a dog with a sore back but he is moving with purpose.   He lays in the sun for a bit while I go get the pool.  It's a good day for a dip.

Blowing bubbles
Glamis climbs in with a little help and it isn't long before he slips and ends up laying in the water.  Just like Arri.  He doesn't lay in the pool until he has no choice but once he is down, he enjoys it.  I only put about 2 inches in and the water is cool.  He isn't in there long when I start noticing that something is off.  I throw a treat in the water and he can't find it...right in front of his nose.  I wave a treat before his nose and it takes time for him to sense it and then longer to figure out where to find it.  He can track up and down but not side to side. He doesn't look at me at all.  he looks around me, above me, next to me.  Something is definitely off.

I get him out of the pool and dry him off a bit.  He walks inside ok - a little sideways but pretty good.  In the house he is tracking invisible flies and focusing on the ceiling and upper section of the wall.  He spins in a circle, bites at the air and continues to look for something that is not there.  When I call his name, he doesn't respond.  I wave my hand - no reaction or attempt to track it.  Make kissy noises...that worked but he still isn't sure where it came from....I am 3 feet in front of him.  Somewhere in his head he is hearing Fantasia music and watching pink elephants dance.  At one point, he walked over to where I normally sit on the sofa and reached out to take a treat from me (I was on the other side of the room).  Hallucinating that I was over there offering one?  Not sure but it was very odd behavior. My best guess is that he had a serious brain cramp.

Glamis spends most of the afternoon in this dazed state.  When Tim gets up for work, Glamis is aware he is up and moving but still not tracking properly.  Now that Tim is up, I go back down to work.  After awhile, Tim comes down to let me know Glamis is in the kennel and he is taking the two stooges to the park.  5 minutes later, Tim comes back down to tell me Glamis is in the kennel whining and barking.  BARKING?????? Glamis has barked maybe 5 times in his life.  Tim is going to take Glamis to the park.  He REALLY, REALLY wants to go.   
I am having a brain cramp and have no idea what is going on


The rest of the afternoon and evening are fairly normal.  He is still off a little bit but it seems the pink elephants have faded for a moment.

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